Monday, September 20, 2010
Please Pray for Samantha/Bring on Those Giants
Please pray for Samantha. Today, the doctors are checking her via MRI for brain bleed (can go along with that bleed out she had), echocardiogram of her heart for the two murmurs/status on hole/to see if she needs medicine, and x rays of her lungs to see about her oxygen issues.
When the resident called to tell us, Sarah sat quietly with big tears running down her checks and dropping on her shirt.
This battle that Samantha is facing has been so hard. We are not clear about her condition. The doctors give us facts but not opinions. Sometimes I wish I were a fly on the wall at their meetings. Apparently, they are not happy with her progress. We just don't know what they are thinking. Maybe it's better I don't.
Lately, I have been thinking about the true Bible account of the Israelites leaving Egypt on their journey to freedom. God tells Moses to send twelve spies into the Promised Land to check things out and develop a battle plan. These are people that have had front row seats to God's miracles. I love the Old Testament.
It is hard to believe, but ten come back with a bad report. They say, "We can't DO THIS! The enemies are giants, the kingdoms are too well fortified, and we will not be able to defeat them!" Remember this is right after they had witnessed the most incredible display of God's supernatural power that the world had ever seen. He had parted the Red Sea and sent the ten plagues to encourage Pharaoh to free His people. As soon as God sends a test, those same people doubt His power.
Now this is where the other two spies--Joshua and Caleb--come in. Numbers 13:30 tells us, "And Caleb stilled the people before Moses, and said, 'Let us go up at once, and possess it; for we are well able to overcome it.'" As a result, God tells Joshua and Caleb that they and the younger generation under 20 years of age would be the ones who would be able to go into the Promised Land because they had “wholeheartedly followed God.” They had full faith that God could defeat all of their enemies, regardless of big or scary or impossible they were. They believed God.
After all God has done for the quads, I am trying to keep a true perspective. I am thankful that Samantha is alive and doing as well as she is. I know that God has a plan for her life or she wouldn't be here in the first place. I know that God's will is what I would choose if I knew all the facts.
On the other hand, I want so much for Samantha to be well and come home. I shared that overwhelming desire with the resident, and it sounded almost as if I were pleading with her to do something. Instantly, I felt convicted. My granddaughter's life is in God's hands, and He is in control. He is working through these amazingly gifted people in the NICU, but He will direct the course of Samantha's life.
Afterward, I felt compelled to let the resident know this fact about us: "If things don't go the way we want them to, we will be okay. Our faith and God's love will see us through." It was hard to even speak the words, but they are true.
At the end of this battle, I want to be able to look back and know that I was like Caleb. I want to wholeheartedly serve the Lord all the time, not just when things are easy. Bring on those giants.
Thanks for praying.
Who shall ever separate us from Christ's love? Shall suffering and affliction and tribulation?
Even as it is written, For Thy sake we are put to death all the day long; we are regarded and counted as sheep for the slaughter.
Yet amid all these things we are more than conquerors and gain a surpassing victory through Him Who loved us.
For I am persuaded beyond doubt [I am sure]that neither
Things to come
Nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Posted by Sondra at 2:00 PM